Life is strange !
You loose someone you love and you think it is the end of the world and that you will always feel a hole in your heart. But only few days later, you realize that the life of that person is over, but not yours. Especially went you are 26 and you have everything to create !
I say that because I went to a hardrock concert on Thursday and I really had a great time, like I did not have for quite a while ! The concert was organized by the Rock Club of Ho Chi Minh City for its 4th birthday. It was very loud music and I loved it. I found the vibe I am missing since I moved to Vietnam. When I was living in Paris, I used to go to concerts such as cradle of Filth, Backyard Babies, Nashville Pussy, Mastodon... Heavy and crazy, only good sound ! Surrounded by powerful music, I feel very much alive and I have the impression that I can do anything and nothing will ever stop me.
Anyways, I was in this big room with about 500 Vietnamese, probably one of the only white dudes who dared to come and with some very cool friends (Thuy, Viet and Loi). At a certain time, I froze and looked around me. I felt like the time stopped and I had few seconds to realize how alive I was. My heart was beating like crazy and my head starting shaking. I understood that it was my time to live and enjoy and that I was the one writing my own story. If I want to have something to tell my own Grandchildren, I have to live my everyday life 100% and not waste time thinking about the past and sorrow. Of course I will always miss her but I have to keep moving, with her sitting on my shoulder.

I have lost many people around me: my best friend, some friends, some relatives... and I don't remember going through a time where I would stop everything, sit and cry. I am a fighter and I believe fighting is the only solution I have to solve the problems or the situations I am facing.
And I realize I like to be a fighter and I don't want to be anything else. I want to be able to say "I won because I fought for what I want". This may seems weird to anyone outside my head, but it is just the way I am. And honestly, I am proud of being a fighter !

So don't mess with me !!!! ;-)