Sometimes, you have to be reasonable and admit that what you want, no matter how badly you want it, will not be good to you.
I have decided to be reasonable and to forget about that guy... Why ? Because no matter how hot he is and how appealing he is to me, if we hook up, nothing good will happen. Ok, at first, it will be heaven but then things might go bad and I am not sure I will have the energy to handle that.
I am used to have very short stories with guys I don't know: we meet in a party, we hang out together for the evening, end up making love all night and then leave the next day and I never hear about them again. And I am fine with that. Call me b..ch if you want but I am having a good time and it does not hurt because I know that nothing should be expected.
But in this specific case, if we finally connect, which is very possible, we will hang out for a little while but then he will be looking for something new with someone new. And I know that it will be hard for me to accept it and do like if nothing happened. He is a bad guy and I love bad guys ! The worst, the best for me :-) But I am not sure to be strong enough today to face this kind of situation.
I have a bad history and I am traumatized I guess. I am thinking every day about what happened to me 6 years ago and the same question always comes back: why me ?
I think if I did not have the strong personality that I have, I would have taken away my life because it is sometimes unbearable to know that your life is changed forever because you were at the wrong place at the wrong time ...
But life is too beautiful to be shortened ! So when I feel like staying under my bedsheets and crying, I just grit my teeth and I move on.

But I definitely made my mind: I will resist to his charm and sex appeal ! I guess I must be the only girl around him who is willing to turn him down :-) But it is for my own good !

Be strong, be strong !