I cannot believe I ended up crying in front of Hung yesterday. I tried to hold it as much as I could but I got very stressed during the class as I was not able to do the exercise and I had to let it go. I would have given anything to hold these tears and wait for a few hours to let them roll but I just could not. It must have been the way he talked to me or the fact that he felt something was wrong and he wanted to understand...
I have a beautiful life. I am lucky enough to have a job that I love, to have friends around, to have an easy way through the day, to have money... but some days, I feel like I have a weight on my shoulders and I just cannot handle it. I had a lot of things in my mind since a long time and no one to express my stress to. I hold inside for as long as I could, waiting for things to get better. But the way Hung sees things, reacts and thinks is incredible. I wish I had 10% of his wisdom. Nothing seems to be a big deal to him whereas for me it is the end of the world.
Anyway, I could not help to open up myself to him yesterday and he was of course of great advice. I just hope he does not see me as a complicated person, never happy because it is not true. I love my life and I love to wake up in the morning wondering what the day will be made of. It is just that some days, the sky is a bit more cloudy than others.

I should keep looking at the bright side of the moon !

I gave a call this afternoon to my parents like I do usually during the week to get news and let them know that everything is going fine for me. My mom was gone but I talked to my dad for a little while. Then he brought the news to me: one of their friends was buried yesterday !
Even if I haven't seen the person for a long time, I used to know that he was around, part of the small circle of my parents' friends. But now, knowing that he is gone for ever feels weird. He is not the first to go, unfortunately. In the past year, my parents lost 2 close friends and even if they take the news with control and philosophy, I know that it is very difficult for them each time and that they can't help but to ask the question: who's next ?
When they were young, they got along with a bench of kids like them. My parents were not together yet but that's thank to these friends that they met and got married. For me, all these friends are somehow my parents and I am so grateful that they have been around during my childhood. They tought me, together with my family, what true friendship means. The funny thing is that my 2 best friends are the daughters of 1 of the couples. We grew up together and shared a lot of unforgettable moments. Even if we do not see each other often, we know that whatever happens, we are there for each others. They are probably the only one. I never experienced such feeling with anyone else, and will probably never.

One more gardian angel is flying away... I will never get used to this deep feeling of sorrow.

This is my 60th post on this blog since I opened it. To be honest, I did not think I would write 60 posts...

Yesterday, I lived an unexpected experience that surprised me very much: I went, after meeting some friends, to Yoko for my regular "good sound injection". I was enjoying the music, the ambiance, the people and of course my favorite band ! Then Minh, the drummer, started talking in Vietnamese and people got crazy, shouting, applauding. The ambiance became electric. 2 fashion ladies stood up and came to the stage to sing. I did not know them but I understood that they were superstars. The crowd started singing with them and I could tell from Hung's smile and the others' as well that they were very proud to sing with these 2 ladies. They sang 2 songs but I was quite familiar with 1 of the songs. I must have heard it when I went shopping some day to Citimart...
Being in the middle of the crowd and not understanding what was going on, I understood what it meant to be a foreigner in Vietnam. Not knowing what's going on is a bit scarry but it is also a great feeling. I was amazed to see how people could go crazy for these 2 singers and I was very happy to share this moment with them.

In a different subject, it is funny to see how the past comes back to present from time to time... I was just chatting with... Ben ! A year ago I was trying my best to stay away from him and today, we chat about anything and everything... Cannot believe that 1 year already went through...

Carpe diem my friend !